You made me unbeautiful;

Ask me anything   Sandra Newton; 22; School of civil&environmental engineering, NTU; Carebears, Sunflowers.

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    It’s so funny how the heart and the mind works differently.

    It’s so funny how the heart and the mind works differently.

    — 9 hours ago
    10 mistakes unhappy people make; (taken from marc and angel)
    1. Thinking that you have already missed your chance. – Your life, with all its ups and downs, has molded you for the greater good.  Your life has been exactly what it needed to be.  Don’t think you’ve lost time.  It took each and every situation you have encountered to bring you to the current moment.  And every moment of your life, including this one right now, is a fresh start.  If you have the courage to admit when you’re scared, the ability to laugh even as you cry, the nerve to speak up even if your voice is shaking, the confidence to ask for help when you need it, and the wisdom to take it when it’s offered, then you have everything you need to get yourself to a better place.  
    2. Using failed relationships as an excuse. – Life doesn’t always introduce you to the people you WANT to meet.  Sometimes life puts you in touch with the people you NEED to meet – to help you, to hurt you, to leave you, to love you, and to gradually strengthen you into the person you were meant to become.
    3. Changing who you are to satisfy others. – No matter how loud their opinions are, others cannot choose who you are.  The question should not be, “Why don’t they like me when I’m being me?” It should be, “Why am I wasting my time worrying what they think of me?”  If you are not hurting anyone with your actions, keep moving forward with your life.  Be happy.  Be yourself.  If others don’t like it, then let them be.  Life isn’t about pleasing everybody.
    4. Putting up with negative people and negative thinking. – It’s time to walk away from all the drama and the people who create it.  Surround yourself with those who make you smile.  Love the people who treat you right, and pray for the ones who don’t.  Forget the negative and focus on the positive.  Life is too short to be anything but happy.  Making mistakes and falling down is a part of life, but getting back up and moving on is what LIVING is all about.
    5. Focusing all of your attention on another time and place. – This day will never happen again.  Enjoy it.  Cherish your time.  It’s often hard to tell the true value of a moment until it becomes a memory.  Someday you may discover that the small things were really the big things.  So learn to appreciate what you have before time forces you appreciate what you once had.  
    6. Overlooking what you have to focus on what you haven’t. – Most people end up cheating on others and themselves because they pay more attention to what they’re missing, rather than what they have.  Instead of thinking about what you’re missing, think about what you have that everyone else is missing.
    7. Dwelling on the things you can’t change. – If you hadn’t fallen down, you would never have learned how to get back on your feet.  If you hadn’t been forced to let go and move on, you’d never have learned that you have the strength to stand on your own.  If you hadn’t lost hope, you would never have found your faith.  The best often comes after the worst happens.  You can either move on, or you can dwell on the things you can’t change.  Either way life does move on with or without you.  So learn from the past and then get the heck out of there.  You will always grow stronger from the pain if you don’t let it destroy you.
    8. Constantly sacrificing your own happiness for everyone else. – Never let your own happiness wither away as you try to bring sunshine to others.  Life is not about making others happy.  Life is about being honest and sharing your happiness with them.
    9. Losing track of your own goals and ideals. – Knowing who you are is one thing, but truly believing and living as yourself is another.  With all the social conditioning in our society we sometimes forget to stay true to ourselves.  Don’t lose yourself out there.  In this crazy world that’s trying to make you like everyone else, stay true to your awesome self.  
    10. Dealing with the stress of deceiving others. – If you say you’re going to do something, DO IT!  If you say you’re going to be somewhere, BE THERE!  If you say you feel something, MEAN IT!  If you can’t, won’t, and don’t, then DON’T LIE.  It’s always better to tell people the truth up front.  Live in such a way that if someone decided to attack your character, no one would believe it.  Live so that when the people around you think of fairness, caring and integrity, they think of you.

    And remember, life will never be perfect, no matter how hard you try.  Even if you pour your heart and soul into it, you will never achieve a state of absolute perfection.  There will always be moments of uncertainty; there will always be days where nothing goes right.  But as time rolls on you will learn that even the most imperfect situations can be made better with a little love and laughter. 

    — 1 day ago
    Payphone

    I’m at a payphone trying to call home
    All of my change I spent on you
    Where have the times gone
    Baby it’s all wrong, where are the plans we made for two?

    Yeah, I, I know it’s hard to remember
    The people we used to be
    It’s even harder to picture
    That you’re not here next to me
    You say it’s too late to make it
    But is it too late to try?
    And in our time that you wasted
    All of our bridges burned down

    I’ve wasted my nights
    You turned out the lights
    Now I’m paralyzed
    Still stuck in that time when we called it love
    But even the sun sets in paradise

    I’m at a payphone trying to call home
    All of my change I spent on you
    Where have the times gone
    Baby it’s all wrong, where are the plans we made for two?

    If happy ever after did exist
    I would still be holding you like this
    All those fairytales are full of sh*t
    One more stupid love song I’ll be sick

    You turned your back on tomorrow
    Cause you forgot yesterday
    I gave you my love to borrow
    But just gave it away
    You can’t expect me to be fine
    I don’t expect you to care
    I know I’ve said it before
    But all of our bridges burned down

    I’ve wasted my nights
    You turned out the lights
    Now I’m paralyzed
    Still stuck in that time when we called it love
    But even the sun sets in paradise

    I’m at a payphone trying to call home
    All of my change I spent on you
    Where have the times gone
    Baby it’s all wrong, where are the plans we made for two?

    If happy ever after did exist
    I would still be holding you like this
    All those fairytales are full of sh*t
    One more stupid love song I’ll be sick

    Now I’m at a payphone…

    [Wiz Khalifa]
    Man work that sh*t
    I’ll be out spending all this money while you sitting round
    Wondering why it wasn’t you who came up from nothing
    Made it from the bottom
    Now when you see me I’m stunning
    And all of my cars start with the push up a button
    Telling me the chances I blew up or whatever you call it
    Switched the number to my phone
    So you never could call it
    Don’t need my name on my show
    You can tell it I’m ballin’
    Swish, what a shame could have got picked
    Had a really good game but you missed your last shot
    So you talk about who you see at the top
    Or what you could’ve saw
    But sad to say it’s over for
    Phantom pulled up valet open doors
    Wiz like go away, got what you was looking for
    Now ask me who they want
    So you can go and take that little piece of sh*t with you

    I’m at a payphone trying to call home
    All of my change I spent on you
    Where have the times gone
    Baby it’s all wrong, where are the plans we made for two?

    If happy ever after did exist
    I would still be holding you like this
    All those fairytales are full of sh*t
    One more stupid love song I’ll be sick

    Now I’m at a payphone…

    — 1 week ago
    c-oconutdaisy:

ive never thought of it that way

    c-oconutdaisy:

    ive never thought of it that way

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    — 1 month ago with 34771 notes

    People’s certainty makes my uncertainty even clearer.

    — 1 month ago

    Words cant describe how much i love/treasure my noble grandmother who raised me from when i was in kindergarden till now, a young adult. The reason why i’m so spoilt and why i always want things my way, is because she always did her best to give me everything i wanted and she would always stand by my side to back me up even when i’m in the wrong. When i’m sick, she would make sure she goes with me to the doctors, and feed me my meals even when i’m 18. When i’m hungry at 10pm, she’ll cook food for me to eat, to make sure i won’t sleep with an empty stomach. When i stressed from studying, she’ll always encourage me to study hard and to remember that rest is just as important. When i’m sad, she’ll always know and told me not to dwell on the small stuffs. 

    Everytime i leave home to hang out with friends/work/school, i see her eyes that she’s sad to see me leave. And when i come home, she never fails to open the door with a smile that someone’s back at home to accompany her. That smile makes me feel bad everytime i leave the house, and i would always remind myself to spend time with her at home. But day after day, the promise made is forgotten and it takes a while for that feeling to come back again. Therefore, the promise now, is that once a week i would have to spend time with her, either to eat or watch tv or just talk. Esp when i would be flying to LA for two months. 

    HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY NOBLE GRANDMAMA, I <3 YOU! :> 

    — 1 month ago
    Whats your type?

    Recently, someone asked me, ‘What do you look for in a guy? whats your type?’.

    In the past, i would always share with my girlfriends and guyfriends about my long list of requirements of my potential boyfriend, such as, being taller than me, having dimples, rich, smarter than me, blah blah blah. Im sure everyone have made their own list one point of another in their life. 

    But this time, instead of plunging into my whole list of requirements which my ideal boyfriend/husband has to have like in the past, i replied, ‘i don’t know! ‘. My reply had set me thinking about this topic, of what i look for in my potential to be husband. 

    After all the past relationships i had (not boasting that i have a lot), i came to realize that those long lists actually doesn’t matter. When you meet ‘the one’ you just fall helplessly for him/her, and the list you made? You will make correlations, like ‘Yups, he is what im looking for, he is tall and he is so sweet to me !’. As if the guy last month that expressed his liking for you isn’t tall and sweet to you too? The idea that i’m trying to put across is that there is no need to ‘look’ for your type or have ’ a type’ because there isn’t a your type out there. Because when you really fall for someone, he becomes your type, even without the dimples, or the long hair that can be styled. But when someone whom you don’t like, expresses his feelings for you, you give the reason that ‘he’s not my type’. 

    How does one have in mind of their type? For me, ‘my type’ list came from my first boyfriend, which was my longest of 2 years. He had a good boy look, dimples, hair that can be styled, slim and tall, personality of 95/100 blah blah blah. He was the almost perfect then. And because of that, whenever someone asked me about my type, i found that i was describing him instead. It’s not that i’m not over him, i am. But because he made such an impact in my life, he became the prototype of ‘my type’. But even with ‘my type’ in mind, i still had boyfriends, who are totally opposites of ‘my type’. 

    The point i’m trying to get across is, when you really fall for someone, you would overlook the qualities that he doesn’t have in your existing list, and he/she would define your new list of ‘your type’. 

    Let love be a choice. 

    — 1 month ago
    22nd ❤💚💜💙💛

    22nd ❤💚💜💙💛

    — 2 months ago
    Rainbows always make me happy :&gt; 

    Rainbows always make me happy :> 

    — 3 months ago